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Tune in, turn on, Drop out [Jun. 7th, 2008|10:41 am]
[Current Location |Rob's]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |All the Young Dudes - Mott the Hoople]

It is so hard for me to start posts D; I usually just give up if I cannot figure out how to make the words...

Were I on the computer at my home I would picture post it up. But I am not. The pictures aren't anything too exciting... just outfits and whatnot, I'm working up the courage to post in the fruits community (I don't feel like figuring out how to do the link thing >>), I suppose I am curious as to how they will react. YAH MY OUTFITS ARE THAT OUTRAGEOUS. ...not rly tho.

Atleast I still like my job (McDonald's, late-night). I've been there since Feburary and I still like going there. They give me full time hours and at a good wage too. Of course, it'd probably be a whole other story if I was working day shifts. I just hate telling people where I work 'cause I get the "eww.", response. But it's not that bad, honest ;-;
I'm just happy I don't have to deal with the high school kids that work there...

My 19 birthday was last weekend, it was fairly awesome as far as birthdays go... NICOLE GOT ME A SNES AND A JAPANESE TEA SET THAT HAS LUCKY CATS ON IT. Not to mention the super awesome card from Dakota, oh how glee filled I was. x'3
I also went to the Rainbow, it was pretty awesome. I got to see Desmond, he's all out and proud now. It's cute. I can't believe I didn't see it coming when we were kids xD I just figured he was a free spirit or something.

In other news, my parents are selling the house for a smaller one, they want to retire as soon as they turn 50 and our house is too expensive. It doesn't really bother me, it just puts a little more pressure on to move out soon. I have enough money, it's just hard to find a place. I have my heart set on moving to the downtown area, but we'll see.

Lastly, I joined the league of braces. It doesn't suck as hard as I thought it would but if my dentist said they could come off today I'd be happy. A year and a half isn't that bad though, I'm actually pretty lucky.
God it hurt when they put them on, I never realize how much I love eating until I can't do it.
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Don't Tell Scotty [Dec. 11th, 2007|05:02 pm]
[Current Mood |chipperchipper]

I feel so jolly 8D

I've relaxed alot since my last post, it doesn't matter when I go to school, I'm still so young. Half the reason I was all sketchy about it was 'cause my parents. They don't want me to just flounder about, it seems important to them that I am successful. It kind of bothers me but I understand, who doesn't want to see their kids make something of themselves. So in conclusion I've decided to be unemployed as long as I want '3' Or atleast until after Christmas. Yah.

In other news, I redid my layout. Simple and sweet. The colours don't seem to have too much flow but I like it just same.
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Oh the Panic of it all [Nov. 20th, 2007|01:40 am]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]

Oh no. I quit my job. I woke the the other morning I was like "I hate being there and it makes me sad. NO MORE". So I called my boss and left a message saying I quit ._. At first I was liberated and happy that I no longer have to deal with angry people. I'm far too sensitive for a place like that, I mean, an old man almost made me cry over the phone. It's hard for me to not let crusty old bastards like him get to me. I was excited to have the option of staying up late watching my stories and sleeping in till past noon. I miss having that.
Unfortunately, once the liberation wears off the panic sets in.  I suck at saving money. I need money to go to school next year. It feels so much more crucial 'cause now I know what I want to do. I'm scared I won't get enough saved up and I'll have to ask my parents for money, that's the last thing I want do. If life were simple I'd take out a student loan but my parents make too much so I'd get rejected. Job = Money. Money = Education. Worst comes to worst I'll have to take advantage of my Metis status and go to a school for free. My point of view on that is a whole other story though. >>

Another problem is I don't want my parents to know I quit without finding a new job before I resigned. I know my dad will get all, "That's life. People have to go to jobs they don't like. Get use to it." It makes me sad.
After a shitty day at that hell hole I was irritable and bitter. I don't have to be stuck in a job that destroys my soul. It's strictly my choice whether I do or don't. This time around I'm going to be more determined to find one I like and deem fulfilling. It's not like I have bills to pay, right? I just need to work on tightening my budget. Then I will have enough to go to school next year, get my certificate in child care and get a job I love.
If I keep telling myself that then maybe I'll pull through ;-;
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Lots of Sad [Nov. 18th, 2007|12:04 pm]
[Current Mood |blahblah]
[Current Music |Candy Man - Christina Aguilera]

I had so much fun last night. It's been a long time since I had so much fun in a group of people that consisted of more than three people. Why couldn't the happy night have lasted ;-;

When I was making my treck home I came upon the sweetest kitty. It was a fat orange tabby. I made the mistake of sitting down petting it, letting crawl into my lap. I got so sad 'cause I knew I couldn't sneak him home and keep him warm for the night. I curse the family that left their cat outside over night in the WINTER. When I got up to leave kitty started following me, I ignored it in hopes it would stop following. I had to turn my music up so I couldn't hear its meowing. By the time I got to the corner it was gone. I almost cried.

I moped around upstairs for a bit and soon fell asleep on the couch.  I woke up to my dad cleaning up after his poker game (why I couldn't sneak kitty in, too many people in the next room Dx) I sat up and he said to me, "You know, what do you do when your best friend is drinking to much? Like, do you tell him and risk the friendship? He doesn't even think he has a problem." I replied, "Well if he's destroying himself you should say something." then dad says, "Yeah, I know...It's just upsetting. He had know idea what he was doing tonight. No one wants to me to invite him again." I was pretty drousey so I mumbled something and pasted back out. My dad was probably a little drunk himself. He never usually talks about such personal things. It broke my heart.

To top it off, I woke up again at 6am feeling like crap. I puked. Maybe too much sushi's. I unno. It was icky. I feel a little better now though.
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Bitchy Mcbitch [Oct. 29th, 2007|09:13 pm]
[Current Mood |nauseatednauseated]
[Current Music |Super freak - Rick James]

Fuckity-fuck-fuck. I feel like a shit-wad. Seriously. I feel so effing sick. My throat and gland thingies are all swollen, I can't swallow and my ears hurt so I get nauseated when I move around. I saw the doctor today and she said it's most likely mono. DFHW#($@#*&QAHDN!@!!! I dun wanna dye. ;-; I know I'm over reacting but I suck at being sick. In no way am I a trooper, I get all miserable and pouty.  I feel sad  for those who are forced to be around me. However this remorse does not go so deep that I want to change my attitude but just deep enough to know I'm being a r-tard. GUH. One of my worries is my job. I may have to miss 2-3 weeks of work. I fear they'll fire me. I understand and all, I've only been there for four weeks but still... It pays nice. *sigh* Maybe I'm getting all worked up over nothing, I won't know for sure till tomorrow when the blood work comes back.

How lame. First post in forever and all I do is whine.
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YAR! [Sep. 10th, 2007|05:02 pm]
[Current Mood |dorkydorky]

This is fun. Nicole I feel that you have to do this. If you do then the square will be complete. C'mon. Complete the square.
1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?: [lol no wtf]
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favorite place to spend time:

1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, or album:

1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.
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What A Treat [Aug. 31st, 2007|09:58 pm]
Entry time. Woo.

I've done absolutely nothing this summer, I almost feel guilty. But really, the rest of the year could be my summer vacation if I wanted. No school for me, none.

Hrhrhr, I'm not even going to bother reposting the rules because no one else reads my journal xP I don't really care though, as long as someone is reading it.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
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Awake and Bored [Aug. 10th, 2007|12:53 am]
Yaaaah. I just spent the past hour screwing around with the colours and layouts on my lj. I still have yet to make up my mind. HTML is starting to hurt my brain so I am just going to put up a default journal thingy up for the time being. Nothin' like doing it the lazy way. =3

I don't care what other angry people say. I like pink, it's such a happy and pretty colour. TAKE THAT WHOREZ!!! D<

Anyways, a few old pictures.
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UH OH! MEME ALERT!! [Jun. 1st, 2007|10:57 pm]
[Current Mood |contentcontent]

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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2007|01:36 pm]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]
[Current Music |You Are Expendable - YUNYU]

YAH! I'M BACK AND BETTER THEN EVAR!! ...not rly buh dat is ok ^^

I am so giddy right now it hurts. I wanna go dancing. I wanna go rave. But no raving fun for this grasshopper. None. v.v I am all sick and icky, my eyes and nose are all boogery, and my throat is froggy, but I will not let that terminate my happy-dance spirit!! 8D
I did go to a rave once, it was getting nice and packed, then the man stomped on it. $20 I will never see again. It had so much potential. It wasn't even midnight. And boyhowdy, you don't want to see angry ravers, especially sober ones. The ones on E were too fucked to even care.

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